We have a tendency to roll our eyes at the stupid things celebrities say on Twitter, like when Xzibit called Planking racist or when 50 Cent joked about the tsunami in Japan. Very rarely does a tweet shock followers — aside from sometimes sending them into a 140 character rage — but recent tweets from singer Sinead O’Connor caused followers and those close to the singer to worry.

On Sept. 14 the singer tweeted a series of worrisome messages to her followers. They read: “All this s*** we’re not supposed to say. Including suicidal feelings, sex, etc. U just get treated like a crazy person. I want to go,” she continued, ”to heaven SO bad. Have for yrs. But I don’t wanna abandon my kids. But if I cud die without them knowing I did it myself I wud.” She then stated that she was tired of “being treated like a crazy person,” that she “can’t manage any more” and that she wished she could die “without it ruining [her] kids lives.”

O’Connor, who suffers from bipolar disorder, references her recent divorce as the source of her unhappiness. She stated that she was trying to turn her mood around because she “got tired of crying” and was tired of thinking she was a “s*** person all day.” She finally managed to feel better until a recent visit to her psychiatrist. She tweeted:

Then she asked her followers if they knew of anyway she could kill herself without her children finding out it was suicide.

Immediately followers were shocked and sent messages of support to the singer like “I hope you’ll be ok. Hang in there Sinéad. Things will improve. Just be yourself. Never mind what others think” and “Time to give @howryeh a big Twitter hug. Check her feed. Hugs from everyone, cuddles and vibes. I don’t usually do this kind of thing.”

O’Connor quickly apologized.

O’Connor released a statement on her blog 3 days after the incident explaining what drove her to write the tweets. Part of her statement read:

I wrote on twitter on my way home from the visit as I was crying my face off that I have been so traumatised over the years by this treatment of me as if I’m a mad-woman it has often made me wish there was a way I could die without my children knowing it was on purpose.

She also explained that she was not suicidal, nor was she sorry for the tweets that she posted.

I am not at all sorry that I wrote what I did on Twitter. It was a cry for help and help was received. So it was worth it. I have no shame around the fact that I can be shot into suicidal feelings by certain people’s treatment of me. I am no different to any other person, I therefore act as I believe any other person should be free to.

Previously, O’Connor had been under fire for posting vulgar and sexual messages to the microblogging service.